Within any given instant, it seems that holding myself accountable for my own shortcomings results in immediate frustration and unpleasant truth. But what’s the alternative? I’d much rather hold myself accountable than let my shortcomings accumulate and invite some external force to illustrate my ignorance in some catastrophic fashion. Not only does self accountability increase the chances I can learn from my failures (because I’m being as honest as I can about them), but it also empowers me to be my own boss, as I’ve done my part to transform into a self-regulating entity.
Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha 
To recognise and be accountable is great. To put the shortcomings right is majestic.
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I appreciate your candor and courage. I, too, strive for self-honesty and improvement. But, at my age (63), after decades of self-improvement efforts via personal, peer and professional therapeutic as well as 45+ years of daily meditative practices applied to that end, I have concluded that there is a limit to how much “damage” one can “repair” in one lifetime when is dealing with loads of trauma, as many are (including me.
I have a score of 9 out of 10 on the ACE scale (Adverse Childhood Experiences), so by most researchers’ surmises, I should be a murderer, be addicted, be abusive, be horribly ill and/or incarcerated, or have committed suicide, by now. So, I’m way ahead, since I’m not any/have been none of those.
Sigh.
I do keep trying, though. Until this body is gone, and even after that, I shoulder on. May all beings benefit.
Best to you all,
Sally Ember, Ed.D.
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I admire your tenacity, Sally! I’ve never taken an ACE test and probably wouldn’t score nearly as high as you. I’ve had some bad stuff happen to me as a kid and more as an adult, and I’m pretty close to being mildly psychopathic (although I think that’s actually an advantage in a lot of cases). I think the best one can do is sink deeper and deeper into the fulfilling activities, however that may be accomplished, and be nice to others if and when possible. Sounds like that’s what you’re doing! 🙂
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amazing.. 🙂
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Thank You! 🙂
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Most welcome 🙂
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Great truth. Everything has something to teach us…. if you’re the boss you should really tell yourself to get back to writing. 🙃
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Bout to get back to it right now! 😀
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This is a skill a lot of people wished they had. I work on this every day. Because truly, you can’t expect to grow and prosper without being honest with yourself. It often proves to be difficult but well worth the effort.
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Definitely unpleasant in the short term.
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