Musings

Musings

DirtySciFiBuddha26 Comments

Sometimes, I can nag or rationalize myself out of negativity. Oftentimes, I can’t.

I find it more effective to acknowledge my negativity’s validity (not its metaphysical/objective truth, because who knows what’s objectively true? We still don’t know if this is a simulation) and its right to exist. Intellectually, that may seem like I’m agreeing with it, but emotionally, its acknowledgment and inclusion lessens its grip, because I’m not strengthening it through denial or rejection (which is what happens when I reject and/or deny). I believe this is different from the hyper-exaggerated “owning” of negativity, or the needy exploration of it to prove to an externality that I’ve confronted and made my peace with it. It took me a while to develop the sensitivity that allowed me to perceive the nuance, but the vibe is much more like a heated argument occurring within me, where both sides disengage by civilly agreeing to disagree, then going their separate ways without any insecurity-born desire to dominate the other, and/or score a last-word parting shot.

26 thoughts on “Musings”

  1. My sister would probably say that I excel at the needy exploration of negativity. I look at it more as if I am trying to figure out why I’m negative so that I can deal with it better. My sister works from the “let it go” end of things. I guess I just never let go of the “why” phase. LOL

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  2. I think Self-Acceptance and Maturity have a lot of about negativity. I think those who seems sorta self deprecated to pessimistic are often working within the realms of clarity and the nuance too of how the world works like you say. Lots of grime out there when you’re standing amongst rainbows. One Fascismile-w/-a- Border I’ve been working on is Balance \Harmony\ Serenity.

    I think Balance comes first and Harmony is the at-present way. I used to think Peace was the way but Harmony doesn’t have to be or rarely is peaceful but self-accepting. If you’re a serene lil bean while feeling Harmony, I suppose that’s the Moment-of-Grandeur that comes out of Balance and Harmony.

    My last liveable 2 year Fascismile was ~’Chaos, Variety, Nuance.

    So perhaps you and I Mr.Buddha of Dirty Sci-Fi, are some where around the reach-around of goal points of mentality. 🤣🤣🫣 I keep laughing at Zorbit Five and “do any of you guys serve??” *ahKneeSlapper*

    If wish you the best buddy, in your goals 😄😄🤙🏼😎🐦‍⬛

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  4. I’m probably completely wrong about what ‘owning; negativity means but right or wrong, it’s the very very last thing I want to own. Thanks for your post.

    Gwen.

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  5. It is a simulation of sorts. Light hits the peepers, and the system generates a wide-screen view, but the thing is, and this is according to evolutionist Donald Hoffman, we hummies are only wired to detect a small section of reality, that stuff out there. We are wired to find grub. If we selected to see the “truth” (whatever that might be), models indicate we would go extinct real fast thanks to competitors like lions, tigers, and bears.

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  6. I like writing my negative thoughts in a journal. It helps me acknowledge they exist without giving in to them.

    Even looking back, it feels cringe to see how worried I was above things that didn’t happen.

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  9. Interesting musings. I suppose there’s a continuum of coping mechanisms. My own views are like the weather and change depending on what’s going on externally. Most of the time I ascribe to the “Speaking words of wisdom… let it be” philosophy, knowing it will pass 😎

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  10. I enjoyed this. Trying to talk myself out of those modes, hardly works. I am working on ways of sitting in it productively. It isn’t easy but I’m trying . Writing helps better than anything else I’ve tried ha 🤣 otherwise, it just sits and repeats

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  11. There is something life affirming in negativity. LinkedIn brings it out in me. All the ad-naseum goings on about hustle, purpose, remote work, good leaders, bad leaders. Every once in awhile I have to say “you’ll be dead in a minute you know that right?” Then I go back to being my sunny self.

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  13. Interesting! So maybe the next time I see a little millipede eating my dopamine chocolate I’ll just let the 10-week depression remind me of my existence. Hopefully the millipede was in the sim., and not me…

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