Musings

I routinely deny myself pleasures:  Of sleeping in; instead I exercise/become stronger.  Of spending lavishly; instead I save/live humbly.  Of exclusively watching hours of TV/Internet (others’ creations), instead I write (I do the creating).  Why?  To look good?  To amass money?  To get kudos?  No.

I get strong so I can carry somebody if need be.  I save money to pay another’s expenses if need be.  I write to hopefully inspire/entertain.  Maybe none of these will happen, but knowing they MIGHT is enough pleasure for me.  And if I ACTUALLY rescue somebody, or help with a few bucks, or write something uplifting?  Well that’s a reward beyond measure. (Yes I cut loose once in a while) 🙂

Musings

(Sorry if this offends) This is about how I look for grace in the mundane: Recently I was driving and I had super spicy Thai food the other night.  Yep-I was dying to use the bathroom.  You know when it approaches unthinking instinct? Like hands reach inside you and are wringing your stomach?  That was me.  And suddenly…the urge disappears.  It’s all good.  I’m copacetic.  I am A-Okay.  And I made it to the bathroom.

Maybe the angels didn’t burst from the clouds, maybe I didn’t see a golden glowing Yoda archetype, but hey…

At that moment I would have picked that brief reprieve over any of those things.

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(I take my inspiration from martial arts)  I try to make every response to circumstance an opening into a bigger move.  Just as the most advanced martial artists do not seek to JUST damage, JUST off-balance, or JUST evade/block and instead do all at once when possible, I endeavor to approach life in the same way.

After a certain point, it is not enough to just endure setbacks or just pursue opportunities.  All pieces of an event should be used down to the marrow and gristle, constantly giving me the tools to become what I originally set out to be.

Musings

At the edges of knowledge, logic breaks down.  In quantum physics, objects can be in two places at once; information can travel instantaneously.  And so there is a limit to logic and rationality.

And yet I firmly believe that to perceive beyond these limits, I must verse myself in logic and structure down to my very core.  Learn the rules…and see how to break them.

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Unlike the majority of humans, the dogs I’ve been privileged to know love their friends unconditionally.  They offer up their beloved food or worldly possessions (prized playthings and blankets) and even their life if they think it’s needed.  They take the greatest joys in the simplest pleasures.  I have never understood why “dog/mongrel/cur” has been used as an insult.  If anything it should be a compliment.

Now that I think on it, the best, most admirable people I have known come closest to acting like dogs.

Musings

Conflict is a form of communication.  War/killing/fighting/arguing is a delivery of energy that convinces your opponent that your view/position is valid.

I see it this way to study the rhythms of it; the grace notes, the pauses, the beats between the beats.  And that’s how I look at every exchange:  Writing, speaking, music, art…In the end they all become a magical swirl of energy that you endlessly experiment/play with.

Musings

In the beginning, ideals push you to new heights; you believe that happiness lives within their illusory constructs.  In the middle, you explore ideals to their limits and realize they all fail, given the right reason/circumstance.  Be careful not to become jaded at this point.

In the end, you realize you don’t need ideals to be happy-you’re happy for no reason/all reasons.

You are just happy.