Kent Wayne

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For a long while, I experienced a series of unfortunate surprises, and for a long while, I thought that was just life. But as I opened myself to the possibility of beneficial chance, I began to experience the opposite–existence gave me unexpected gifts.

Maybe there’s no correlation, maybe fortune and perspective are unrelated. But at the very least, I’ve concluded I needn’t live in fear of the unknown, and to give my heart’s desire an honest shot. My life, after all, is guaranteed to eventually end, so what have I got to lose?

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  1. Scott Dee Avatar
    Scott Dee

    Good luck on whatever comes next!

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  2. DragonflyRose Avatar
    DragonflyRose

    I love this 💚 I think for most that first step is actually figuring out what their heart truly wants. Once you figure that out I have found the world just seems to flow a little differently. Happy heart living my virtual friend!

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      I believe that is the case as well. I recently heard it broken down in a resonant way that described everyone as having a “core frequency” supposedly established by our higher self as kind of a loose boundary for what we should explore in our individual life. All we have to do is quiet down inside (stop being so hard on ourselves, be willing to explore a bit, ease off overthinking, ease off judgment, etc.), and that frequency will naturally come to the fore and start giving us guidance and synchronicities. In this model, our surface consciousness doesn’t actually need to focus hard on specific aims, but relax into the present-moment experience and let that frequency arrange the timing and synchronicity. May not be for everyone, but I think for now that’s how I like to view it.

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      1. DragonflyRose Avatar
        DragonflyRose

        I like this viewpoint. It makes sense. I feel the same. I’m working on not letting outside stimuli push me in directions that don’t feel right. I end up making an emotional mess of things because I’m being driven by outside energy. But when I’m alone I feel when certain people, places, things are off. I feel that loose boundary to definitely be a guide. I’m leaning into trusting mine more and learning to say no to things that don’t resonate with me instead of my usual “I’ll give it a try”.

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      2. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
        DirtySciFiBuddha

        I think I can relate! I like to say that I’m leaning into living a life of trust, rather than faith (trust is more visceral in my mind, faith is more intellectual and rationalization-heavy), that since we’re inextricably bound to our higher self and we can’t help but be divine, that my primary task in my surface consciousness is to sync with the experience, allow the unified perspective as much as i can, and let the core frequency bob to the surface and work its magic. I don’t think this means to not think at all, because I’ve felt very in flow while thinking, but I do believe it means ease off overthinking, where I can tell by the underlying emotion that I’m dialing in on desperation, lack, and I’m trying to counter my fears with frenzied planning.

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  3. DragonflyRose Avatar
    DragonflyRose

    *there 🙄😬

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    1. DragonflyRose Avatar
      DragonflyRose

      Shit nvm!! hahaha it’s been a day… i need to go to bed… 🤪

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  4. Edward Ortiz Avatar
    Edward Ortiz

    Well said. Keep up the good fight.

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  5. Dawn Renee Miller Avatar
    Dawn Renee Miller

    Reminds me of that ol’ exchange … “What if I fail?” “…But, what if you succeed?” …. But then, there are those of us afraid of both, then we just freeze and get stuck in the mundane…

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      I like to say just do what you can, without being hard on yourself. Unless the belief is absolutely there, I wouldn’t recommend quitting a job and going all out, because if you don’t believe you have a parachute you shouldn’t jump out of the plane. I remember when I had a tight schedule and I was only writing five minutes a day for a while, and I remember reading Tolkien was writing on napkins during trench warfare in WWI. I’m a big believer in invisible forces helping us out, and I think that sends a signal to em. Also, I watched Jim Carrey’s college address where he made a great point about his dad really wanting to be a comedian but deciding it wasn’t safe so he resigned himself to just being an accountant. Then he lost his job, and his family had to go into survival mode for a while. Jim Carrey’s point was even if you play it safe, there’s no guarantees, so it’s worthwhile to nurture the dream if only a little.

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    2. Lareveuse Avatar
      Lareveuse

      “If you are depressed you are living in the past. 
      If you are anxious you are living in the future. 
      If you are at peace you are living in the present.” 

      ― Lao Tzu

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  6. Zaid Qaffaf Avatar
    Zaid Qaffaf

    In the inevitability and certitude of death lies the beauty of life, dwelling on the past or fretting over what may lie ahead means drowning one’s own hopes and dreams, and forbidding the world and yourself from seeing your potential and greatness. I wish you all the best.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Indeed! We are free to assign meaning to our potential, and also free to embark on the adventure to discover how best to express it.

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  7. Francis DiClemente Avatar
    Francis DiClemente

    I love the phrase beneficial chance!

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  8. shredbobted Avatar
    shredbobted

    If you hang around long enough, you’ll get some yin for the yang. So to speak.

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  9. Careena Avatar
    Careena

    Following that heart’s desire needs a special type of courage. Sometimes it takes a lifetime to build it up and for some just knowing about it is half way done.

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  10. 1962liola Avatar
    1962liola

    I think life is full of unexpected surprises 😊

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  11. Jay Avatar
    Jay

    Exactly. You have nothing to lose. Nor do I. I have spent so long in the doldrums, most of my own making. What good does it do? Be happy. Soar. You deserve it.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Yes, everybody deserves fulfillment! Slogging through life and constantly dismissing our dreams is a nonsensical design, in my opinion.

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      1. Jay Avatar
        Jay

        I totally agree with you. I believe we act as mirrors and so if we reflect to ourselves our perceived unworthiness, it’s not surprising if that’s our experience out there in the world.

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      2. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
        DirtySciFiBuddha

        Absolutely! I believe one of the greatest gifts of life is that we have a choice in what meaning we decide to assign to it.

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      3. Jay Avatar
        Jay

        Exactly!

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  12. Priscilla Bettis Avatar
    Priscilla Bettis

    None of us are guaranteed tomorrow, so yeah, what have we got to lose?!

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Indeed! I like to come to this perspective voluntarily through ease and acceptance rather than how I used to do it–burning myself out and being forced to relax into acceptance.

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  13. Dianne Lehmann Avatar
    Dianne Lehmann

    I vacillate. Some days I feel that you are absolutely right in the original musing and all your replies. Other days, I just worry. I have a hard time shutting off that voice in my head that tells me things are not okay. When in reality, there’s really not much wrong in my life. And the things that are not quite right, I’m dealing with. I know that I will eventually end and I’m getting closer every day. It’s the uncertainty of the now that gets to me. But your thoughts do resonate with me.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      This is paradoxical, but when I’m worrying or negative, I let myself feel it and be it without adding fuel to the fire, which in my experience is rationalizing it either way, towards why I deserve to feel negative or why I should reject it. Yes, it’s not the greatest thing to feel negativity, but when I’m in despair, the last thing I want to hear is “this too shall pass,” even though I know it’s objectively true. I release it much faster by validating it–I’m not going to act on it, but internally, if I let myself feel it without rejection, suppression, or mental gymnastics, I move to acceptance fairly quickly. I’m much better off telling myself “fine, I guess I’m stuck here forever,” if that is what naturally arises without conscious prompting. Not sure if that works for you, but basically I focus on accepting the negativity, which moves me from the negativity into acceptance, even though it could be semantically argued that I’m endorsing the negativity.

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  14. Dianne Lehmann Avatar
    Dianne Lehmann

    Definitely feels paradoxical, but I do understand what you are saying. Buddhism teaches us to feel everything and then let it go. There are quite a few days that I look to the Tao for inspiration. There is also that whole “go with the flow” thing to consider. It’s when I push against the “bad” feelings that I have the most trouble. But as I am sure you know, acceptance is difficult. Negativity is a part of life. If we didn’t have that, we couldn’t have positivity. That’s my belief anyway. Thanks for all your thoughts. They are always helpful.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Yes, I equate negativity to sauce and seasoning that bring out the flavor of the entree. Sauce and seasoning is meant to enhance, clarify, and highlight, but all too often I think people use too much sauce and seasoning, so to speak, and drown out the entree. As far as acceptance, it can definitely be difficult! I find that if I’m stuck in non-acceptance, the best thing for me is to paradoxically accept that I’m stuck, accept that I am not accepting, admit and validate that to myself if that makes sense. Sometimes, the path of least resistance (for me) is accepting that I can’t accept, and abiding in that tension without inflaming it through justification or denial. The absolute last thing I want to hear or berate myself with in that moment is the phrase “this too shall pass.” Yes, I know objectively, everything changes, everything passes. But to me, that’s the power of paradox, where I can paradoxically ignore the technical truth so I can resonate with the spirit of it.

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    2. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      I realized that my follow-on reply repeated a bunch of the same points from my first one. Sorry–I’m a little discombobulated this morning! 😅

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      1. Dianne Lehmann Avatar
        Dianne Lehmann

        We are very complicated creatures. And … some things bear repeating.

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  15. V.M.Sang Avatar
    V.M.Sang

    My problem is worry. It’s easy to say ‘relax, stop worrying,’ but my definition of worry is it’s anxiety about something you have no control over.’ I tell myself this thing will end and normality will return, but the feelings are still there. The feeling of being down, emotionally and physical things like nausea don’t go away.
    Usually my anxiety is about things that are happening in the lives of my grown up children, and their emotional state. Absolutely nothing I can do except offer support when they ask.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      This is paradoxical, but personally, I have good results with just letting myself feel the worry without inflaming it through rationalization, whether it’s through the truth that it will end, or spiraling into the whys of why I should be worrying. The last thing I want to hear when I’m deep in worry is “this too shall pass.” Yes, I understand it’s objectively true, but it actually helps me to just allow myself to feel it, and even say “fine, I guess I’m stuck here forever, worrying forever,” if that’s what I’m feeling, even though I know it isn’t true. I see my emotional self as an irrational kid that just wants to be heard (felt.) When I let myself feel and validate whatever it is, without feeding it through justification or rejection, the faster I normalize, but if I try to resist with rejection, rationalization, etc. it adds fuel to the fire. All that’s just my personal experience, so it may not work for anyone else…

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  16. Tommy P Avatar
    Tommy P

    The notion that life is a blend of both unforeseen challenges and serendipitous gifts is a compelling one. It’s intriguing to consider whether the change in your experiences is a direct result of your altered mindset or simply a natural variance in the course of life.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Yes, it’s definitely a philosophical rabbit hole and is scientifically (psychologically), sound, to an extent. Then it goes into speculative physics and magical thinking, which, while inconclusive, I think is fun nonetheless.

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  17. gwengrant Avatar
    gwengrant

    I love this open the mind and see other possibilities. Wishing you a peaceful and serene
    Christmas.
    Gwen.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Yes indeed! True abundance lies in possibility, most people just think material resources, but those are byproduct of possibilities.

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  18. Rupa Rao Avatar
    Rupa Rao

    Manifesting works for many- have you or anyone known experienced it? https://ruparaoruminates.wordpress.com/

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  19. revairin Avatar
    revairin

    This is a really fantastic thread of comments. I have enjoyed reading this.
    I have experienced manifesting things in my life. You probably have too, Rupa. You were just unaware that you had asked for whatever it was. The Secret, is a good book to give you the principles. The foundation principle is Trust. Trusting your higher self, God or the Universe, whatever you call the Presence. You have inspired me to write about it soon on my blog, metamoments, https://wordpress.com/post/revairin.wordpress.com/559
    This one touches on manifesting, feel free to leave a comment.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      I believe we do it whether we acknowledge it or not! It can be demonstrated from a scientific worldview (psychological experiments like the invisible gorilla), argued for in quantum physics, and of course validated given mystical premises.

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  20. Gerry C. Avatar
    Gerry C.

    Season’s Greetings and all the best for 2024!

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Thank you! Wishing you the best as well!

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      1. Janice K Jones Avatar
        Janice K Jones

        What a thoughtful and kind discussion with genuine explorations and sharing. Quite beautiful. I get a similar feeling of groundedness, searching, and open questioning from The Red Hand letters by Nick Cave. It takes intellect and courage – and I believe also a readiness to live with doubt and uncertainty if we are to keep learning, and not retreat into shouting and ‘easy answers’. I love it that you can hold that uncertainty and speak openly without fear. Generous and courageous. Thank you.

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      2. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
        DirtySciFiBuddha

        Thank you! I believe we have internal guidance that applies to us as individuals and honors the fact that we’re specifically separate entities in time and space, it’s just sometimes we forget our connection to it and get all wound up in these rules, those rules, who’s doing what and what does society think I should do. Not to say that one should throw all rules to the wind, but I believe in fostering and listening to that internal guidance.

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  21. salvarez10297 Avatar
    salvarez10297

    I really enjoyed reading these comments and the post itself. It was definitely helpful and insightful. I have learned too that, “what is for me is for me.” No matter what life situations happen, I will get what I am supposed to and it all works together for the greater good. I have been working on self-love; accepting myself as I am and doing the best I can each day. I am a work in progress and it takes a village and I am okay with that. I am also okay with the alone time that I need to just regroup and refocus. Life is to be enjoyed, experienced, and fulfilled until the end. I live in the present moment at each moment and it keeps me propelling forward. Thanks for the post and comments. They were greatly appreciated 😉

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Glad to hear it! Yes, I’ve lived life as a horror story, I like to think of it as an adventure nowadays!

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  22. Pam Goode Avatar
    Pam Goode

    YES!

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  23. authorstephanieparkermckean Avatar
    authorstephanieparkermckean

    Amen. The Bible says that “all things work together for good to those who love the Lord.” God bless.

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      DirtySciFiBuddha

      Thanks for the share!

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  25. A F J Kernow Avatar
    A F J Kernow

    I agree with the general sentiment of your post and the comments. If you don’t try, you don’t learn and if you don’t give space to your dreams then you can go through life full of regret.

    I hit 50 last year, I’ve always been a writer at heart. So, I learned the business of writing in order to produce the best writing I can and give it a go. Even if only one person enjoys my work it’s been worth it. I’m under no illusion that this will not make me money but its therapeutic value has kept me sane!

    My very best wishes to all those dreamers out there, take care.

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      I like to think of the money stuff as a lady I’m interested in. If there’s any reciprocity, I’ll build on it, but I’m not going to find fulfillment or results by pushing it too far too fast. Right now I like to entertain some daydreams if they come along, but that’s about it. Life isn’t based on a score card, it’s an individualized game where I’m going to enjoy what fulfills me, if that makes sense. That’s a long-winded way of saying I agree with you!

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  26. Rupa Rao Avatar
    Rupa Rao

    No risk, no reward!! No guts, no glory!!! Facing the fears, inner demons..is the courageous way to overcome insecurities and doubts!!! Well said!!

    https://ruparaoruminates.wordpress.com/

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  27. Admiral Fisher Avatar
    Admiral Fisher

    I think life is what you put into it. No risk no reward.

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  28. vrendes Avatar
    vrendes

    There’s nothing to lose and so much to gain. Go for it!

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  29. Gwen Courtman Avatar
    Gwen Courtman

    I just wanted to say thank you for always reading and liking my posts on my novel, Raw Mistakes. As a new author trying to promote my book, I really appreciate it!

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    1. DirtySciFiBuddha Avatar
      DirtySciFiBuddha

      No problem! I wish you fulfillment and luck on your writing journey, and most of all, I hope you enjoy it and have fun with it!

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  30. Gwen Courtman Avatar
    Gwen Courtman

    Thanks! The book writing was fun, the marketing not so much!!

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