Category: Musings

Switching labels/aesthetics can be fun and novel, but I think the most important thing for me is the focus that underlies my words, plans, and justifications. Without a critical mass of positivity, I’ll subconsciously find ways to work against my aims, to make every expression a meaningless gesture that lacks the ability to align to a…

When things have gone awry, I used to inwardly match the urgency of the moment. Over time, I learned that even though I might need to be outwardly frantic, I prefer to internally compose myself as fast as possible. Personally, I get there through acceptance, which may appear as resignation. ”It is what it is,” “that happened,” and…

Since emotions are drivers of my perception (I either can’t think of anything positive when I’m severely depressed, or it all seems futile and not worth trying; or, if I’m in a good mood, it’s hard to dwell on things that infuriate me, or I’m willing to view them as solvable challenges), I believe managing…

To partake in society, we must honor a degree of baseline consensus. But in my opinion, this has nothing to do with existential self worth. In the absence of definitive metaphysical proof, we can’t assign worth in the passage of eons and upheaval of galaxies, where over the possibly incomprehensible span of time, good triggers bad and…

Maybe I’ve fallen into a foolish state of existential trust, but I find that if I build on what I’m given, I’m given more to build with. That doesn’t mean everything has to be put to immediate use, but I do believe there’s value in releasing anger and frustration (for me it’s not so much deliberately…

I’m drawn to writing because of the pleasure that arises from the act itself. There are other activities that come with transactional sacrifice–where I trade present discomfort for future gain–but they tend to become cliched and boring, so I like to use writing as a portal into synchronicity, novelty, and possible transcendence. Those may not be the…

From what I’ve seen, creative expression is an amplification of perspective and belief. It can boost and uplift, invent reasons to suppress or oppress, craft a prison from an overabundance of caution, or liberate the potential in our transient lives. Whatever path is chosen, creativity won’t be denied. But I believe that when it’s channeled into a…

For a long while, I experienced a series of unfortunate surprises, and for a long while, I thought that was just life. But as I opened myself to the possibility of beneficial chance, I began to experience the opposite–existence gave me unexpected gifts. Maybe there’s no correlation, maybe fortune and perspective are unrelated. But at…

After brute-forcing my way through much of my life, after encountering numerous rough spots, I have come to believe the easiest way forward is not endless chains of mental gymnastics, but allowing myself enough space and uncertainty to intuit the answer, live it, and be it. It may not make sense, it may evoke contrary…

Despite all our advances, we have a poor understanding of our metaphysical reality (is consciousness a result of matter coming together, or did it precede the physical? Are we in a simulation? Do we have free will? And if we do, how much, and under what circumstances?) So in the freedom of that uncertainty, I…