Category: Musings

Early on, I found the concept of dominance useful. That began to chance when I shifted my focus onto “mastery.” Then, much to my chagrin, I realized that mastery, with its connotation of masters and non-masters, still trapped me in the same hierarchical dynamic. Nowadays, I try to simply be present and allow for the…

Abiding in subjective sufficiency (believing that I am enough, I have enough, and that I can extract opportunities and benefits from challenges) seems to maximize my fulfillment, and turns life from a horror movie into an adventure. I’ve done the opposite, where I framed everything as a reason to berate myself, to punish myself, to…

I’m a fan of abidance in casual, non-insistent “pro-noia,” or the idea that existence is conspiring on my behalf. There’s no way to definitively prove it, nor is there a way to prove the opposite. Regardless, it brings me peace to assume that in the long-term, pro-noia is the default reality. The implications that arise…

I’ve noticed that when I relax into allowance, even if its of my own negativity (simply feeling it and letting it be, not acting on it or inflaming it with logical justifications or denials), it leads to neutrality, then positivity. This leads me to believe positivity is a default state. So instead of frantic rationalizations…

For most of my life, I’ve diminished my fulfillment through constant justification, as if someone was ceaselessly judging my every action, thought, and urge. Then I noticed that even when I “checked all the boxes,” it didn’t make me fulfilled, despite the fact that I’d satisfied all the logical requirements. Is that why I’m here?…

While it can’t be proven, I believe staying open and present is a pathway into existential transcendence–a way of dimming the illusion of space and time, and acknowledging information that isn’t held back by reductive categorizations, and/or potentially oppressive societal considerations.

I’ve tried to pin down whether existence is transactional (every gain must be paid for with suffering and/or inconvenience), or transcendent (everything I need is all around and within me, if I only relax and open myself to its presence). Maybe I’m a pollyanna, or maybe I’m just tired after trying out years of draining,…

I find it interesting how malleable my belief is, relative to whatever I’m feeling in the present moment. If I’m feeling positive, I truly believe in potential and possibility. If I’m feeling negative, hopelessness and cynicism taint everything I do. I work with this dynamic by focusing on allowance and validation of whatever I’m feeling,…

It’s easy to argue we’re stuck in a zero-sum existence. However, no one has definitively explained the nature of our reality, the fundamental truth behind consciousness, quantum phenomena, and whether or not we’re stuck in a simulation. In other words, there’s still a lot of wiggle room that allows us to choose our individual perspective.…

As much as my younger self would have argued and scoffed, I have come to believe the default state of the universe is positive and benevolent. Because when I succeed in emptying my mind, I don’t stay empty–a feeling of wellbeing inevitably follows, sometimes to the point of psychedelic bliss. But that isn’t definitive according…