I regard my feelings in an illogical sense; I believe they depend on my personal focus and nothing more. It took a long time for me to come to this conclusion, but after seeing I could be happy in miserable conditions and miserable in happy conditions, I realized that my perception of events is a function of perspectiveโ€”possibly the greatest creative act I could ever engage in. (For me, this isn’t as simple as flipping the positivity switch, but more along the lines of settling into the most positive feeling that resonatesโ€”even if that’s anger or frustrationโ€”and accepting/abiding in it, not inflaming it, until it opens into something more positive like boredom, mild irritation, or mild satisfaction, which pave the way for actual positivity.)

Often, it takes a little while for my perception to influence (become?) reality, but that lag-time is good. It allows me to clarify what I truly want.


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  1. What do you truly want? I want a smallholding for my wards, an acre to grow fruit, a koi pond and a heritage collection of furniture to fill it! My body of husband to be present daily with my good book in hand, a great new personality and a sex drive that does not need directions! lol ๐Ÿคฃ next twenty year project! what is yours!

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  2. You miss read that totally phallic symbolism baby! i spent twenty years sober, when i release i have a glass of wine, If they are sad i party and have a few! We are celebrate the things we enjoy, just missing our loved ones!

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