If I flake, I try and make sure it’s for a real reason and not from some craving or whim I’ve disguised as a nebulous rationalization.  Because if I flake for a BS reason, I’ve disrespected that ancient part of myself that KNOWS what’s right, that KNOWS I should be disciplined, clear-minded, and steadfast.  I like to keep that part of myself strong and healthy.  Disrespect weakens it.  Disrespect relegates that part to the back corners of my soul, where it turns into a nagging voice, and eventually into a pervasive guilt that lets me know I could be somewhere more desirable, if I’d only stepped up and exercised discipline.

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