(IMHO):  Infinity and time are so big that everything we’ve dreamed for ourselves has [happened/is happening/will happen] all at the same time and there is nothing to beat yourself up about, nothing to place above other things.  You’ve been the most hated, the most adored, the highest, the lowest….and it doesn’t matter.  Find the purest, most undeniable meaning of “love” behind all the duty and obligation, of every concept behind friends/family/society/honor/identity…and reside there.  

That’s the ONLY thing that makes sense through EVERY scenario.  😉